mad about love

i had the worst week of my life last week. it was really a turning point for me, especially with my love life. akala ko magiging masaya nako, pero lalo lang akong na-confuse.

Si Myke, dapat magkikita kame last weekend pero hindi natuloy. ewan ko kung divine intervention yun, pero something happend, something unexpected. i dont know why im doing the things i do ryt now. ewan ko ba! nababaliw na yata ako. samen dalawa, hindi ko alam kung sino ang may pagkukulang, pero sana maayos na namen 'to, dahil nasasaktan nako sa mga ginagawa nya sa akin. ayko isipin na meron na syang iba, kasi mas masakit, kaya niloloko ko nalang ang sarili ko, iniisip ko na marami lang talaga syang trabaho.pero putang inang trabaho yan! ang hirap pala makipag kompetensiya sa trabaho, lalong lalo na sa pera. di ko alam kung hanggang kelan ko makakayanan 'to. sana lang, busy lang talaga sya, at wlang ibang kalokohang ginagawa. kundi, di ko alam ang magagawa ko pag nagkataon.

Myke, sana, makayanan ko tong ginagawa mo saken. Sana, pag kelangan mo nako, andito pa rin ako.

badass day!

today is our 4th year anniversary.

pero imbes na maging masaya ako, lalo akong nalungkot. pano ba naman, ni isang text wala pa akong natatanggap galing kay Myke. Tama ba naman yun! im sorry, pero putang ina naman! bakit ganon?! ano bang naging kasalanan ko sayo,bakit moko ginaganito? leche, tangina talaga! akala ko dati, magiging masaya na ang love life ko,pero bakit kung kelan malalim na ang feelings ko sayo, ngaaun mo pako gaganituhin?

Putang ina! Gusto kong magwala!

kung pede lang kitang puntahan sa bahay nyo,para malaman ko kung anong meron,bakit bigla kang nagbago, nagpunta nako..pero salamat sa Diyos, may natitira pa akong pride sa puso ko..kahit pano,mahal ko pa rin ang sarili ko..

Myke,sana, malaman mo kung gano kasakit yung ginagwa mo saken..sana balang araw, malaman mo kung anong kelangan kong i-give up para sayo, tapos ito lang pala kapalit ng lahat ng paghihirap ko..gusto kong sisihin si God, bakit nagkatagpo pa tayo, pero iniisip ko nalang, may reason sa lahat ng ito..

sana, kung niloloko mo lang ako,wag mo ng patagalin..set me free.

I have a right to be happy, hindi lang ikaw.

What we should know by 30

1) How to fall in love without losing yourself.
2) How you feel about having kids.
3) How to quit a job, break up with a man and confront a friend without ruining the friendship.
4) When to try harder and when to walk away.
5) How to kiss in a way that communicates perfectly what you would and wouldn't like to happen next.
6) The names of: the secretary of state, your great-grandmother, and the best tailor in town.
7) How to live alone, even if you don't like to.
8) How to take control of your own birthday.
9) That you can't change the lenth of your calves, the width of your hips or the nature of your parents.
10) That your childhood may not have been perfect, but it's over.
11) What you would and wouldn't do for money or love.
12) That nobody gets away with smoking, drinking, doing drugs or not flossing for very long.
13) Who you can trust, who you can't and why you shouldn't take it personally.
14) Not to apologize for something that isn't your fault.
15) Why they say life begins at 30.