day after christmas

i was wrong to write about a sad christmas becoz i had a wonderful one after all..(",)

i was able to go home and spend christmas day with my family...i never thought i would be able to, but thank God i did..spending the birth of Jesus with my mom and dad is truly wonderful..kahit na konti lang handa namen, masaya na rin kame..it feels good to make people happy..giving presents on christmas day is rewarding..ewan ko ba, kahit maubos pera ko, mabgyan ko lang sila, msaya na rin ako..=)..christmas will never be the same without my family.(",)

another good thing that happened for me was that i have finally forgiven my dad..kasi nagkaroon sya ng ksalanan samen ni mama, and ive been holding it against him for the longest time..then, paguwi ko last dec24, nung nakita ko na sya, parang lahat ng tampo ko nawala na rin, as in totally..i dont feel angry or kahit anong klaseng negative feeling towards him..Thank God for that..mahirap magalit sa kaibigan or kamag-anak, pero mas mahirap magalit sa magulang..the anger can destroy you, and it can consume you until you don't feel anything for that person except hate..buti na lang, nakawala nako sa hate na yun..may mga tampo pa rin ako, but i know now, i will be able to deal with it when im ready..alam ko, no matter how long it takes for me to forgive, magagawa ko pa rin..i just hope it's soon..=)

my love life was good too..kahit di ako binati ng lahat ng friends ko, yung 2 taong importante saken, di rin nakalimot..My Oppa called, though he was not in the mood to make lambing becoz he spent christmas day in Baguio, masaya pa rin ako..sana lang di sya nagsinungaling saken nung sinabi nya na di sya uminom with his friends on Xmas eve..sana rin di sila nagkita nung nililigawan nya dati..ang dami kong fears when it comes to Myke, kasi dati nagkita na sila ng girl na yun khit di ko sya pinayagan..but that's all in the past now..it's one of the thousands of things that i want to forget, yung pakikipagkita nya dun sa taong yun, but anyway, that was almost 4 years ago, need to let it go now..(",)

Reb called me too..i have to admit, i was touched, kilig and happy dahil di nya ako nakalimutan..kahit di ko pa sya binati, kahit di ko sya naalala, alala pa rin nya ako..truly, love moves in STRANGE ways, ways i can't even possibly imagine at times..(",)

yesterday, on my way back to manila, i cant help but ponder about the year that was 2005..ang dami kasing nangyari this year..though, this hasn't been a perfect year for me, i cant really say that this was the worst..kasi ang dami kong natutunan ngaun taon na 'to..ive met new friends, i had a new work, ive lost friends rin (i mean, old friends na akala ko for life na, pero mawawala rin pala..)..ive learned a lot this year actually..ive learned more about friendship and about relationships..natuto rin ako sa love...no matter how bad or good this year has been, im still glad for the year 2005..i can say that this has been one of the best years of my life..=)