The "X"

i used to love someone.. we met thru a friend, and though he did'nt really love me the same way then, i still have this crazy feeling that someday, he will..eventually, we drifted apart..i left him, becoz he was involved in some bad stuffs, and i really didn't want to associate with the likes of him..i know, kahit mainlove pa sya saken,il only get hurt in the end..

3 years passed..in those years, i found my real love..the person i would like to spend my life with, the one i want to grow old with, and we are happy..(",) gone is that guy from the past whom i used to think i love..

last may, i received a call from someone...yes, it was the guy from my past, telling me he's back. i was surprised he remembered me, after 3 years of not seeing or talking, he finally had the courage to call and ask me out..he kept bugging me, and finally, i agreed. i told myself there's no harm with seeing him again. i noticed the change in him when i saw him again after 3 years. he has changed a lot..he was asking me to give him another chance, but it's too late now. i can't let him mess up my life for the 2nd time..call me crazy, but i still care for him though, that tiny part of me still cares..

i want us to be friends, but can you really be friends with your "X"? i doubt it..he says he loves me. It is ironic... and strange.. how you can feel intense love for someone, and the next day, it's gone, as if it you never actually felt it..

i wish he never came back, but maybe, there's a reason why this all happend..maybe, this will be the closure that we never really had..i hope so..i wish he finds the love that he's been searching for.i did.